[Janet]

It's been a rough couple of days. On Thursday night, Mom went in to turn her cycler on so her dialysis fluid warms up. She said she went in a little after 6:00 pm and called me at 6:30 telling me she just got up off the floor...that she must have passed out. She said she didn't need anything but thought I needed to know. The roads were real slick so I called my brother who is only a few blocks from her. When she went down...she hit her head above her left eye, scraped her right arm enough that it brought blood to the surface of her skin and on her left arm...scraped the top level of skin off. It was soooo close to her fistula that if it had punctured it...she would have bled to death.

I took her to her scheduled Dr. visit on Friday. Her Dr. checked her over and when speaking with Mom found out this isn't the first blackout, she had another within the last week. She also had a close one with me at her house and another at the Dr.'s office. The Dr. seems to think it's her heart. She did speak with her a bit about realizing that Mom isn't going to be able to stay by herself much longer.

Mom as a vist to her heart Dr. scheduled so hopefully we'll learn something there. If it wasn't so painful it would be funny, but now on top of everything else.....mom's hemmeroids are acting up. She just cried and said "what more am I gonna have to go through". I feel so bad for her.

I do think she'll be coming out to our house for awhile. I told her we'd bring her bed since she's used to it and her recliner. She started to cry and said she didn't want to lose her house and things, but I assured her that wasn't going to happen. That I could still take her there once in a while during the day, but at night she needed to stay with me. She's been doing okay on her dialysis, but forgetting how to get the 'cassette' out of her cycler, so I've had to go in and do it.

If feels like posting about my Mom is all I do anymore and I'm so sorry. It's getting to be too much and I'm exhausted and tired of crying so much myself. Please just keep us in your prayers.