[Janet]

It looks like I don't have to send the letter I was writing to my brothers after all. My younger brother Brad came this afternoon and played the weekly game of Yahtzee. I stayed in my room so they could visit privately.

When I heard that he was about to leave, I came out to say goodbye. He said he was going home to eat. Then he just kind of stood there at the door and finally said that he was going to be busy on Saturday, but maybe he could get Mom for Sunday dinner and have her spend time at his house. It made my heart feel good and I started crying and said "thank you, it can be really hard".

He then said (in a belittling tone) that maybe I should look into other options. I told him I wasn't putting her in a nursing home yet, it would make Mom so sad and she wouldn't last very long. He got angry and said that he can't help out any more than what he has been, because he works everyday. What the hell does he think I do all day with Mom and my home?

Anyway...I lost it. I totally lost it. I told him that he sure found time to take two 4 day weekends to go fishing without a single call to Mom so it was obvious where his priority lied. That if he wanted to make time he could but that he was too selfish and always had been.

He turned and started out the door and I yelled "just go ahead and get out you F n Ba_ _ _ _ d. He started to come back in and I yelled for him to get out...get out of my house....so he left. Of course I'm crying the whole time.

I get up enough nerve and told Mom I opened my big mouth again and told her what happened and what was said. Mom wasn't upset at all. She said it was the truth and that he'd get over it. Still....I didn't want there to be any backlas for Mom. So....I texted that I was sorry. That I was exhausted and that he was still welcome to come visit Mom...that I would just excuse myself.

Well, he texted back that he would not be visiting with Mom here...it would be somewhere else. He said more but to make it short....he's out of my life. I'm not disappointed at all. We really weren't on good terms anyway so I'm glad it's finally over. Such a pain in the "you know were"!

It sounds sad....but he is such a selfish jerk and even though he is younger being around him I felt like I was walking on egg shells to keep from setting him off. He's so moody and judgemental. So.....life will go on.......