I feel like I'm still going crazy over here. My supervisor has been sick for a couple days and not at work so I've just been sitting in this room by myself and I start thinking and I miss my ex. And I hate my ex. I want him to hurt as much as I do. I hung out with his friends last saturday and when he was brought up it was awkward. Later in the night we were talking about the guy I was seeing when I met him, and the guys were like "oh we all knew about him and didn't like him at all" and I said "well ryden didn't know about him, he said if he would have known i was with someone he never would have tried flirting with me" and they were like "Oh he knew! You're just gullible" and i was like "no he didn't" and they were laughing so hard by then and told me "you are way more gullible than you think, trust us!" I didn't ask, because I want them to just think I'm over it, but I am going CRAZY now. Was he lying to me the whole time? What else did he lie about? Do they all think I'm stupid? I know not to bring him up to them because they're my friends too, but his friends longer. I know he's going out and having the time of his life and hanging out with gorgeous girls, and I'm pretty sure by now my place in his bed has been taken by someone else. It's killing me. I have to stop writing now because I'm sitting at work and my eyes are welling up
