I seriously would not have had the nerve to apply for this job had you all not been so supportive and challenged me.
Marilyn asking me:
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What do you have to lose??
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really pushed me into at least giving it a try. So simple and to the point... Marilyn, it meant more than I can tell you.
I seriously didn't think I had any chance at it and expected they'd read my resume, have a laugh and toss it in the trash. Now that I've had an interview that went so well, I feel so much more hopeful that even if I don't get hired this time I think it will be easier to apply for other things that might come along just because my self-esteem is renewed.
My last 2 jobs have been hell on my self-esteeem. I disliked them so much that I had started to wonder what was wrong with ME that I couldn't settle in and adjust. They were both respectable jobs with good benefits, fair pay, etc and I know others who really would have loved to have had either of them. I really wondered if I would get excited about a job again, or if my attitude was so bad that I was doomed to being an old crab.
So thanks. I really needed this regardless of how it ends with this particular job.
Given the chance, I'd obviously jump at the job. If not, I'll keep watching for something that brings out this kind of excitement in me. It's good to know I can still feel it! I just need to be more selective in what I try for.
Thank you all for helping me to feel this again. HUGS