[Lindsey]

It means a lot for you to just say that I seem like a wonderful person, I'm actually in tears right now. Last night, the first bar we were at was just down the street from my ex's house where he was having a party with all his (and my old) friends. I still miss him. My friend was trying to flirt with some jerk at a pool table and he rode a bike so she told him she did too, and introduced me and told him about my bike. He said he drove a yamaha so I was like "oh just like my ex" and he said "yeah he's a smart man. That's why he's your ex." I was so angry I actually felt like i was going to cry right there, and especially after the friend just giggled and flirted with him some more. At the second bar after I got ditched, I actually did go into the little room with a phone in it, closed the door, and cried there. I hate crying in public and I'm usually a stronger person than that but it feels like now I just can't hold anything in anymore.