[Lindsey]

I'm usually such a strong person. I never do that, and I don't know what was going on. I told him on the way home "If you think you're taking me home because I'm going to sleep with you, you're wrong. And you better still call me even though you're not getting anything" and he laughed and said "Of course I don't expect you to sleep with me" I remember that CLEARLY. An hour after that I don't remember anything. I don't know, maybe all the alcohol hit me later... I'm usually in control, I don't know what I was thinking. I can't keep dwelling on it though, i've been beating myself up all day and I really feel like dirt. Well, I've been upset about it since Thursday morning, but finding out he has a girlfriend made it 10 times worse.
His best friend was with the girl I went to the party with. I just found out that his best friend is still dating a girl he's been with for a long time, but they're long-distance right now. So basically it's just a big group of cheaters. I told the other girl not to bother calling him anymore, and don't answer if he calls. I think I"m just going to surround myself with girl friends for a long long long time.