[Lindsey]

I played the field for 3 years before I gave in and started dating Ryden and I realized I really REALLY like that there was someone who was just always going to be there for me. My friends are all in long-term relationships with live-in boyfriends, or married. I only have a couple of single girlfriends that I don't really see a whole lot.
I really don't know what I want right now. I really do LIKE Kyle, but I don't know if I could love him. Lately I almost even dread anything intimate at all, even kissing. I'm just not into it. I love to be with him and cuddle and hold his hand and hug him. He's not afraid to just act silly with me and I'm completely myself with him. I don't want to lose his friendship, and all of his friends, and all of his family, but that's inevitable if I break his heart.