[Lindsey]

Thanks for sharing that, Judy. I think, sometimes, I just don't like myself enough to feel that need to be happy. I measure my happiness by how happy I make other people.
Last night went really well with Kyle. Times like that make me really not want to break up with him. We talked and laughed and joked around, then he fixed me some food and we cuddled in the dark, watching a movie. I hate that it's not like that all the time.