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Lyndsey, I'm happy things are better, but you sound a lot like the girl I used to be. I didn't feel complete unless I was someone's girlfriend. All i ever wanted to do was get married & have children & I was so afraid that I would be alone & no one would love me. I almost married an aweful man that was very controlling & abusive because I didn't want to be alone & felt i had to be someone's wife to be something. When things got particular bad I met a guy while on vacation with my parents who was sweet & caring & excepted me for me. Things with that guy didn't go anywhere but it made me realize that there are many fish in the sea. There are guys out there that would care about me unconditionally & not be mean to me. I dumped the loser on the way back from that trip, I wanted to wait til I got home, but he put me on the spot. & i spend the next three years in college just getting to know myself. I figured out that I didn't need a man, I could be happy & support myself & be on my own forever & be just fine. Once I got to this place I found a wonderful man that complimented me. We're married now & spend all our time together. I mean all our time, we work at the same place, we take lunches together, there are very few moments we are apart & we almost never fight. It sounds to me like you're making excuses for him. I used to do this, I used to see the good in people & ignore the bad, & it got me in bad situations with bad people. You need to open your eyes & focus on yourself & truely examine whether you miss him or just miss being with someone. I'm sorry if this is harsh, you can take it or leave it, but I believe i've been where you are & I don't want you to go down that path & marry a bad guy. Be true to yourself & your dog, she truely loves you unconditionally. And any man that's jealous of a dog may have some problems.
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