[Marilyn]

I can't stand being the size I am any more!!!!!! I've gained weight since last summer. I quit exercising because I just didn't have time!! (Yeah right!!) I quit dieting because I deserve to enjoy life!! (Yeah right!!) Well, I'm not enjoying carrying this extra weight!!!! I'm not enjoying how my clothes feel!!!!!! I've got to do something about it!!!!!

Weight Watchers worked for me, but I got so tired of trying to stay within my 16 points. I couldn't eat anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had to find the 3 point Healthy Choice Meals and eat fat free yogurt & sugar free jello. You might as well drink a glass of water as eat sugar free jello. There is nothing in the plastic cup but water anyway!!

I don't know what I'm going to do. I told one of our daughters that I was going to quit eating and she said that anorexia is not the answer.

I just ate a bowl of Special K cereal and some leftover Johnny Carino's pasta. So now I feel like I messed up!!!! I just wanted something salty after the sweet cereal but couldn't find anything except the pasta.

The gym is closed, and it's not safe to go run at night here. The treadmill is soooo boring!!!! I gotta get motivated. That's the key!!!!! Pray that I can do this. I really need to!!!!