[Janet]

Thank you all very much. I'm hoping I can type this all without crying anymore. Rick thought he would really like it there (the new place). The other guys seemed really nice and he didn't really worry about getting along with any of them.

Some of the other body shops in town...Rick knows them all, couldn't believe Rick went to work for this shop. They said the guys are all 'butt-hole buddies' and are just pretty tight. No one told Rick that until after he got hired.

After Rick started working there, he still liked it, but thought things were so different from any shop he's ever worked. They didn't have much to work on so he was really glad he was getting paid hourly instead of commission like he had always done. Well, when he got back from lunch, Rick hadn't even got out of his car yet, when the boss handed him his check and told him he was paid up until lunch today. That he was disappointed that he hired him because he thought that for as long as Rick has worked auto body repair, that he would be faster. How in the sam-he** can he be fast if he doesn't have anything to work on but piddley stuff? He said the boss wouldn't even look at him...just walked off.

Anyway, Rick will go back tomorrow with the truck to pick up all his tools. I told him I'd help him if he wanted, but I'd speak my mind to the SOB. Needless to say...I'm suppose to stay home.

He has my mother's car to work on (she wrecked it again and hasn't had it fixed yet), but after that, he'll need a job. We don't have a savings...still have 5 years on the house, plus the normal bills, elect, cells..etc.

I am so darn sick and tired of struggleing. I didn't think at this age I would still be worried about money. Not that I thought we'd be rich, but at least I could sit down and not worry if there was a bill I couldn't pay until the next week. I'm tired. I'm ready to go whenever the good Lord wants to take me. I just plain sick and tired! I honestly just don't care to try anymore.

Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow, but somehow...I doubt it. I'll just carry on because that is what is expected.