Reba, I'm very proud of you for working on your issues. I think it is so true, we must work on them our own way. I love to read about what others do, because it gives me ideas about what I might try. Sometimes they work for me, sometimes, not so much!
Weight, and losing weight are very personal. It is very easy for some, hard for others, and for some, darned near impossible. I think the key is to find out what works for you and then go for it.
I find that when I start a diet, I often keep it to myself. I'm not sure why, but for some reason I find that if I start on the covert, I do better, don't ask me why.
I also think it is much harder to watch your weight, or lose weight, for some people. I know my daughter finds it very hard to lose weight. Her daughter, my granddaughter simply cannot eat like most of her friends. When they come over to her house, they eat everything and my granddaughter will gain weight if she does not watch everything that goes into her mouth. She's only 12. She has an hour of PE everyday, she swims on a team and they practice for an hour and a half, 3-4 days a week. She plays volley ball and they practice for 2 hours two days a week. She also rides her bike, and the skateboard regularly. So, it's not like she sits in front of the TV all evening.
Anyway, my point is that we are all different and some of us struggle more than others, LOTS more!!!
Again, I congratulate for trying - that's the first important step!