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hmmm
well i think i dread the holidays more & more every year, it gets to be such a hassel and i know a few years down the road i will regret saying this but right now it's just so hard. my mom lives about an hr away from me , alone now that my dad is gone, but even before he passed because of illness we go to their house . well i have 3 grown married children and just recieved my 6th grandchild this year , so i have to take all of my presents out to my moms and most of the food now cause mom is getting to the age that she cant handle doing things like she use to. dont get me wrong i love my mom dearly and would not ever let her spend christmas or any other holiday alone it's just that i really dont buy alot for the grandkid's during the year but i usually make up for it at x-mas so i tend to have alot of packages to haul out to my mom's and then she has alot of packages also because she buy's for the grandkids & great grandkids . and then since my kids are grown they also have other inlaw families that they need to go visit plus i am divorced from their father so they have to spend time with their father's side of the family so trying to figure out which day and what time everyone can get together is an ordeal in it's self. so you can see i am exhausted even before the day get's there. i would love to just be able to stay at home and tell the kids whenever you get here is fine the food & gifts will be here so long as i get to see them sometime that day. like i said i know i will regret saying these things later on down the road because someday my mom wont be here and i will miss her so much . i just cant imagine my life without my mom, she has always went above and beyond for everyone so i will continue to do this for her but i would really rather just stay home and cook the meal and have the kids here. am i being selfish.
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