[Lindsey]

By the way, I think it really hit home when I told her that I'm so scared she won't be around to see me get married or have kids. She still has her mom, she had someone for support when she was married and pregnant. My mom is only in her 50's and has already been hospitalized for a stroke. I'm not ready to let go yet, and she knows how much it scares me now. I don't think anyone has said to her straight "If you keep doing this, you're going to die early" I don't think she told the doctor she started smoking again.