It's going to be an awkward night

[Lindsey]

Thanks Judy.
We did talk yesterday, and smoothed things over somewhat. I think basically we just avoid talking about the big subjects. It's not working out, and I know it, and I've known it for a long time. I was talking (okay, crying) to a girlfriend yesterday morning before I saw him, and she was like "He might be a nice guy, but not the guy for you. You don't deserve this stress and you are too young to feel like you have to settle down." And I completely agree, but when I'm with him, I can't end it. I'll miss him too much, and I'll miss his family too much. I'm not ready to let go.
What I think bothers me the most about the Ryden thing is, yeah, maybe he does care about me as a person, but he doesn't make an effort to try to be my friend. In fact, he never talks to ANY of his old friends anymore. He's just obsessed with his new girlfriend, and why does he deserve to be so happy after he made me feel so bad and even my new relationship isn't happy?