i give up...well, i want to anyway...

[blowry]

Hi Mandee, I just read this post. I am sorry that you have to go through this and happy that things are working out for both of you. When I read your post I was reading my life with my husband. I am 50 and this is my second marriage. We will be married 8 yrs in November. Only difference, I am living with a man that is bi-polar and has a mood disorder. NEVER in my life did I think I would end up like this. I love him with all my heart and am totally in love with him. I DO NOT want to leave him but, that thought had crossed my mind. The verbal, emotional abuse and controlling has got to end...I told myself (after divorcing an abuser) that I would NEVER let anyone do this to me again.....and I did....shame on me! He is in therapy right now and on meds however, he has a binge drinking problem as well and this is when the verbal and emotional abuse gets worse. I pray everyday that God gives me strength to help me, help him. If you ever need someone to talk to please don't hesitate....I certainly know what you are going through and how you are feeling and, sometimes just talking with someone that is going through it makes you feel better....You are not alone Mandee.


Big hugs to you