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[Tink]

Judy, I have really missed you on the site. While I love the younger ladies here, for me it's such a treat to have women more my own age to talk with! I spent years working on a parenting site so most of the online friends I made are in their 20's and 30's and at totally different stages of life than I am. Finding you, Janet, and DianaB posting here has meant so much to me! I just wish we all lived close enough to actually get together and visit in person. I know I'd have a ball.

I used to be on anti-depressants and still struggled to enjoy my life. So I can relate to where you're at. It's a lonely cold place that no one should have to be in. What helped me was to finally take control of my own life. I pray you can do the same.
The Serenity prayer helped me...
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, (your daughter being married to an abusive butthead certainly fits in this category)
the courage to change the things I can, (If you want a partner, by all means go out and find one! You're beautiful, loving, fun and smart! Any man would be lucky to find you!)
and the wisdom to know the difference. (Which I trust you already have)
Even if you're not a "religious" person, there is wisdom to be found in it.

What did you enjoy doing prior to having kids and responsibilities? Any hobby, or causes you'd like to return to? I know my going back into breeding dogs has really increased my daily smiles. I bet there's something you'd enjoy too that you gave up due to lack of time and freedom that you could enjoy again.

If you want to look for a partner, go to the places you'd like one to go to WITH you... and hopefully he will be there alone wishing he had someone to share the experience with too. Don't discount a younger man... I dare say you could keep up with one just fine and he'd be at your side longer than if you choose someone older.

You SO deserve to be happy. The hard part is getting off your butt and out the door to make it happen. HUGS

[judy]

Dear Tink,

Thanks so much. I really love our young women too, but we do share a certain wisdom and life experience....No offense to the younger women - you bring your youthful energy and hope.

Great words to think about - I do have trouble accepting her husband ("Swamp Thing" is my personal nickname for him).

I'm going to give some serious thought to what I used to enjoy. I know being creative is up there, taking classes, and I like yoga and meditation.

The man - yes, younger is what I need. I'm not talking about too young, but a man my own age is just too damn old!

Now, as far as getting my butt out the door..that's a a very good idea! I've been waiting until I'm ready. No, no, do it now!

Thank you my dear friend,

Judy

[Gina]

Judy,

I have not been on much myself lately just busy working. What is nice about this forum is that everyone can vent and express their anger and their happiness. We are a diversed group which make it interesting. We can offer the young ones advice from our experience from growing been there and done that ,and they in turn can offer us the new way of thinking of todays generation. So it is a great mix.

To address your first concern, you are only 60 and your a pretty woman who does not look her age. You should be out there dating, I don't mean the bar scene I am sure that along with us all growing up in NYC you did that. If it is your thing so be it, but I know a lot of women who go on match.com , another one is plenty of fish.com.. yeah what a name lol. They have met wonderful men on these websites. This is the new era of meeting people via the internet, along with caution that should be no problem. Whether you want to remarry or not should not be an issue right now you need a friend to take you to dinner and wine and dine you. We all like to be pampered me to...lol I also have friends who date younger men, my friends are my age 50 and date 40 yrs old. Age is a preference, 60 is the new 50 and you should date men regardless of age factor. If they treat you well that is all that matters, Be he 40 or 70 lol.. thats just my opinion. If the internet is not your thing, go to barnes and noble, or anywhere where they have parents without partners . I have been out of Bklyn awhile now so I don't know where people go to meet others. But get out there and DATE...

As far as your daughter, I don't know why she is treating you this way. You are her mother and the only one she will ever have. I think this creep of a husband is definitely controlling her, she is in a way in his mercy. She should let you into her life for your retired and I know that you would be by her side helping her and helping taking care of your grandkids. I don't know if its right thing to do but I would try to contact his mother or family and ask why her son is shutting you out of your daughter's and grandchildren's lives. Do you think its him?, intercepting the calls , maybe she needs to get help and you have to find a way to get her out of there. I am just trying to understand this. Judy I have come to believe is that whatever goes around comes around. They have children, not to wish bad things on them..

Judy I guess you have tried and there is nothing much you can do. Yes it is awful that your only child is acting this way. She knows your there and there is nothing more you can do at this point...It will hurt yes, but hopefuly it will get resolved....

Sorry for the long post pm me anytime... Good luck! and start mingling lol

[Forgivenmom5]

Judy I am still praying for a miracle in your relationship with your daughter but if that doesn't happen you know you have done your best.

[judy]

Hi Debby,

It's good to hear from you! I hope you're having a good day.

Thanks for the prayers and back at ya!

Love,

Judy

[DianaB]

Judy, you've had lots of advice already and I agree with what the other ladies have to say. You're a very young 60 and I think that if you're lonely you should start looking for someone to fill that need. You know best where you want to meet someone and if it's on-line I say go for it!!!

I'm sorry about the relationship that you have with your daughter. I can't imagine anything hurting more then not having the relationship with your daughter that you'd like to have. Her husband is a jerk, but still she surely has times that she could pick up the phone and call you if she wanted. Maybe she's scared to. Is she home alone while he's at work? If so, then I'd make a visit during that time and see how she's doing. Maybe send her a card but don't put your return address on it and include a letter to her. Don't include anything negative in the letter. Just let her know that you miss her and love her.

I'm glad that you let us know how you're feeling and what you're going through. We only have one life to live so get out there and enjoy it!!! I'll keep you in my prayers!!!!

[judy]

I found out yesterday that my daughter moved about 5 hours away sometime over the summer. My hairdresser knows us both, and she told me. That's what one of the phone calls from her husband was about.

I'm glad she's moved if that's what she wants, but I just can't believe that the daughter I raised and loved and still love would move without even sending me a postcard. Now I know for sure that it wasn't anything I did wrong. I would know if I had been so terrible a mother that my own daughter would move and not let me know, and I definitely know I wasn't that kind of mother.

I already found out her address and phone number. It's so easy online.

I'm so hurt, I'm numb.

[judy]

Originally Posted by Gina

Judy,

I have not been on much myself lately just busy working. What is nice about this forum is that everyone can vent and express their anger and their happiness. We are a diversed group which make it interesting. We can offer the young ones advice from our experience from growing been there and done that ,and they in turn can offer us the new way of thinking of todays generation. So it is a great mix.

To address your first concern, you are only 60 and your a pretty woman who does not look her age. You should be out there dating, I don't mean the bar scene I am sure that along with us all growing up in NYC you did that. If it is your thing so be it, but I know a lot of women who go on match.com , another one is plenty of fish.com.. yeah what a name lol. They have met wonderful men on these websites. This is the new era of meeting people via the internet, along with caution that should be no problem. Whether you want to remarry or not should not be an issue right now you need a friend to take you to dinner and wine and dine you. We all like to be pampered me to...lol I also have friends who date younger men, my friends are my age 50 and date 40 yrs old. Age is a preference, 60 is the new 50 and you should date men regardless of age factor. If they treat you well that is all that matters, Be he 40 or 70 lol.. thats just my opinion. If the internet is not your thing, go to barnes and noble, or anywhere where they have parents without partners . I have been out of Bklyn awhile now so I don't know where people go to meet others. But get out there and DATE...

As far as your daughter, I don't know why she is treating you this way. You are her mother and the only one she will ever have. I think this creep of a husband is definitely controlling her, she is in a way in his mercy. She should let you into her life for your retired and I know that you would be by her side helping her and helping taking care of your grandkids. I don't know if its right thing to do but I would try to contact his mother or family and ask why her son is shutting you out of your daughter's and grandchildren's lives. Do you think its him?, intercepting the calls , maybe she needs to get help and you have to find a way to get her out of there. I am just trying to understand this. Judy I have come to believe is that whatever goes around comes around. They have children, not to wish bad things on them..

Judy I guess you have tried and there is nothing much you can do. Yes it is awful that your only child is acting this way. She knows your there and there is nothing more you can do at this point...It will hurt yes, but hopefuly it will get resolved....

Sorry for the long post pm me anytime... Good luck! and start mingling lol

Dear Gina,

Thanks for the compliments. That's always nice! And no bars for this Brooklyn girl! I like the "plenty of fish.com" name. I've hear Match.com sucks, but I only need one guy. I like monogamous relationships best. I never had the energy to put up with more than one guy at a time.

As far as my daughter, yes - I have tried pretty much everything. Calling his parents is a waste of time. They're total enablers - he's an alcoholic - and at this point probably hate me too. Their son disgusts me, so I guess I can't blame them. They're not going to see him for who he really is.

No - the ball is now in my daughter's court. It's all up to her. The very sad thing for her is that she is very sick and does need him, or thinks she does. She has 3 young children and MS. She's stuck between a rock and a hard place too. I'm very strong. What would I do in her shoes? I'd like to think that after some time, I'd gather up my strength, overcome my fears, and put my foot down to my husband. The truth is, he needs her as much as she needs him. She gives his lazy, loser lifestyle legitimacy. He can feel like a man.

Well...we can write a book about him, but he's really not worth the energy.
Truthfully, right now, neither is she, except for prayers for her health and the children. I need my energy to get on with my life or I'll find that I spent it all waiting fir her to come around.


Judy