I think it's over.

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{{{Lindsey}}}
I'm sorry you're so unhappy. You're right though... if he can't accept your pet, he's not the guy for you. If a dog bothers him so badly can you imagine how he'd react if something really big got in the way? You deserve better... and it will come along when you least expect it.

[Lindsey]

I know inside that this relationship isn't going to last forever. I just always want to hold out for a little longer. But it's not fair to Layla to be scared of him, and it's not fair to me to feel controlled. I miss making decisions on my own without thinking about how he's going to react. I've had the chance to travel since I was 15 and had all my papers and medical stuff filled out to become an exchange student. My boyfriend didn't want me to go, so I didn't. I went to the university in the city where my boyfriend lived. I moved back here for a boyfriend, when I planned on moving to Arizona after graduating college in December. I'm 23 years old and I have so many regrets about not seeing the world yet. I'm not going to stay here just for another guy. I'm not married and I don't have children, this is MY TIME. I know I have to do what I want to do. Today he said "You would rather be with your dog than me" and yeah, I would.

[rivermom]

What's stopping you then? Go for it girl, just you and Layla. You said yourself this is your time. You are not married, you have no children, and most of all you said this has always been a dream of yours and were going to do it in a year.

It doesn't work when we depend on others for our happiness. As they say if we do that then we allow ourselves to depend on others for our unhappiness too.

This is your life. Only you know what's best for you.

[Lindsey]

I miss him.

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Lindsey, you miss what you HOPED he meant to you... not who/what he really is.
You wouldn't miss the criticism or the jealousy of your dog. You wouldn't miss the moodiness and negativity he brought with him. Sometimes we miss the dreams when they fade... but you can't live with a dream when he keeps slapping you awake with negativity.

Go where you want to go and when the time is right someone will find you there... or will follow you there... it's someone who shares YOUR dreams that will make you happiest anyway.

[Lindsey]

Thanks for the support. I really don't know what I'd do without this forum!
I finally got out of my room to watch tv for an hour. You can imagine what my face looked like after crying for 4 hours straight. My roommate came upstairs, knowing what went on, obviously seeing how distressed I was, and she gushed that her deadbeat boyfriend finally called her and told me every detail of their wonderful conversation.
My lack of real friends here is so frustrating. Sometimes this forum seems like all I have. I just feel like I vent so much that I'm a huge downer around here

I am so sorry Lindsey. The way you describe him, what he says, how he treats you he sounds like an awful guy. I'm sure there is a lot of good about him that you did not mention but to me it just doesn't seem like he is the one for you. I mean i don't know much about your relationship and you're the one that knows but im just saying that from what you've mentioned so far. If you want to travel the world, which i think is GREAT btw then do it. You are young now and may never be able to do it again. You prob. will get married and may have kids and it will be harder to do by then. I say now is the best time. He just doesn't sound like the best guy to stick around for. Has he called you? If he hasn't i say forget him. You don't need someone controlling you like that. Are you going to be taking Layla when you travel the world? J/a cause i also want to travel and was wondering if it's possible to take my dogs. I have a bf too and hope that when i travel it will be possible to do it together, if we can't then idk what i will do. I really want to go to Europe, South America, central america, etc. just all over!! And i think your roomate stinks too, she should be caring enough to listen to you and be there, not talk about herself.