anyone ever

i would love to see a professional but we have no ins because hubby started his own company and we cant afford it right now plus they would just put me bk on meds and that made me into a zombie, i couldnt even remember what happened durring the day when i was on them. not remembering was ok but now that i am off everything its like going bk to day one with emotions. and when i did see someone all he did was up meds. if i do ever get the money i will make sure to tell them no meds this time. i have to learn how to get through this not cover it up.