Spoiling our parents

[judy]

My Mom died when she was 56. She was sick all of my life, and, truthfully, she was verbally and emotionally abusive. I loved her and seemed to understand that she was always frightened because she was so sick. That's what was behind the abuse. I thought that if she took it out on me, it would leave her, and she would be happier.

I certainly spoiled her until I was a teenager and couldn't take it anymore, only because I never could take the fear and anger away from her. In other words, it didn't work. I also needed to get away from her abuse - it did do damage to me! So, I moved out when I was 19.

I feel very bad for the young child I was who tried so hard to help my mother and who was abused, but I don't regret "spoiling" her. I only regret that it didn't work.