When You Though I Wasn't Looking!

[Janet]

I always knew Mom loved me, but I also knew she loved Brad more. He was the youngest and had a more outgoing personality, while I was shy and afraid to do anything by myself.

Mom has told me she loved me, but not often. Just like you...I tell my son I love him probably 20 times a day, seriously. I love him so much I can't help but tell him.

I was closer to my Dad too and when he passed away, I felt really alone with just Mom and my brother.

We only went to Sunday School. I think Mom wanted us to learn something about God. But then her and Dad got interested in camping so we started camping with my brother and I were still small enough to sleep on the same cot.

I did attend church with a friend in high school for a short time, but my mom didn't like driving me across town and then have to come pick me up again and that was when they weren't camping. I didn't always go camping with them because I had a part-time job.

I didn't have aunts and uncles who we were close with, Mom got on their nerves a lot so we weren't invited all the time. When I type this out, it's so easy to see why I've turned out like I have...still I have questions.