Please Keep Robert In Your Thoughts

[DianaB]

Sheryl, it's so good to have you back on here. I'm so sorry to hear about Robert's health but I'm glad that you've turned to us so that we can be praying for both of you. I know that Debbie's name has already been brought up a few times but she has been such an inspiration to all of us on here with everything that she's gone through. Keep us posted about what's going on and I'll have my church praying for Robert as well. Tell Robert that I said hello and that I'll be praying.

[rivermom]

Thank you ladies very much.

I never know what our future holds nor it's outcome. What matters now is today with hopes for tomorrow. It's new to Robert and I to deal with "one day at a time". We've been practicing I guess you can say.

Thank you again.

P.S. I did not mean to duplicate my other thread. I need somebody w/ super powers to delete it.

Thank you. Special thoughts to each of you.

[Shada]

Sheryl, I feel so bad that you and Robert have to deal with this. I wish I had magic words to help you on this journey.

This will not be a easy battle to win. BUT it can be won!! Please keep a positive attitude. Robert needs your strength now. I am not saying not to show emotion, not to show him how scared you are... cry together.. get mad at what life has thrown you guys. Its not fair. But it happened.

Focus on his treatments. Focus on how when this is all over you two can continue on, to look back at this horrible time in your lifes,.. and be stronger for it.. to grow old together.. to have a future. Together.

My first post here I thought my world was crumbling. You responded to my post and gave me strong advice. You helped me. Looking back on that post, it is so insignificant to what you are going thru now.
I am here for you. Its my turn to give back what you gave me. You need to talk.. I'll talk. You need to cry.. I'll cry with you. You need support.. you have mine.

[Mandy]

Originally Posted by Shada

Sheryl, I feel so bad that you and Robert have to deal with this. I wish I had magic words to help you on this journey.

This will not be a easy battle to win. BUT it can be won!! Please keep a positive attitude. Robert needs your strength now. I am not saying not to show emotion, not to show him how scared you are... cry together.. get mad at what life has thrown you guys. Its not fair. But it happened.

Focus on his treatments. Focus on how when this is all over you two can continue on, to look back at this horrible time in your lifes,.. and be stronger for it.. to grow old together.. to have a future. Together.

My first post here I thought my world was crumbling. You responded to my post and gave me strong advice. You helped me. Looking back on that post, it is so insignificant to what you are going thru now.
I am here for you. Its my turn to give back what you gave me. You need to talk.. I'll talk. You need to cry.. I'll cry with you. You need support.. you have mine.

Beautiful post Thanks Shada

[rivermom]

I sit here w/ hands on keyboard not even knowing what to say. You ladies have given already such heartfelt words of encouragment, and care. I really do appreciate it.

My life has been very difficult at times - times when I just wanted to give up, throw in the towel. But I pushed forward knowing I can "fix it".

My struggles through Robert's cancer is I can't make it better for him, I can't "fix it". I know I want to be there for him every step of the way by his side. Supporting him, caring for him, and seeing him through each step.

I have to admit - the overwhelming feelings of this all has taken it's toll on me. Yesterday I pulled into the parking lot of my doctor's with screeching tires. Running in to their office I said if someone doesn't help me I'm going to have a nervous breakdown.

It seems easier when it's your ownself having life's troubles. But when you watch a loved one experience such fear, such pain, and suffering it was more than I physically and mentally could handle. I realized that with my own minds placement I was unable to care for him they way he needs me to. I felt as if I was failing and was only a burden to him. The doctor prescribed me some chill pills and I pray when they actually start kicking in.

I want to be positive - I want to push forward and see him through this - Through sickness and in health is one of my marriage promises that I wont let slack.

This morning when I woke up and watched the sunrise over coffee I made myself a promise that if it was ever I who came up with cancer I would let it ride it's course. I will not ever go through treatment as Robert is, nor will I try to fight it.

I have had a beautiful life whom has watched my kids grow. I have met a wonderful man whom I care for more than myself. His happiness is greater than myown.

Situations in life puts more into perspective, it makes the picture more clear.

Take each day - notice the small wonders around each of us - and not expect ever for it to continue.

[Janet]

Sheryl, we love you and we've missed you. I know I speak for the others when I say we'll be here for you. You're so right, I think it's so much harder to watch a loved one be frightened, hurt or sick and knowing it's out of our hands. That is really when the faith kicks in.

I would like to suggest you keep a journal Sheryl. For me, when I can write/type things out it's like I'm letting go of some of it, ya know? It helps to keep me from feeling so overwhelmed with my thoughts and fears. I've cried so many tears as I've written my feelings, thoughts and important instructions down, now for my mother. Letting the tears fall as I write also helps to lighten the load so to speak.

Can you tell us (in your own time) about Robert's cancer? How he and you found out, his symptoms? If it's too hard, please don't feel you have to. Whenever and whatever you want to share, we'll be here to help you through it.

[rivermom]

Over a year ago Robert went to our family doctor. He had a lump on the inside of his neck. The doctor said "oh it's probably just a gland, lets keep an eye on it".

Well as we all know, time flies and we forget. His lump never hurt, nor did he feel sick. We just sorta ignored it for that years time. Then one day we both noticed the lump seemed larger. He also at that time could feel it pushing on his throat while swallowing. So back to the doctor.

Our doctor immediately sent him to a e/n/t specialist and they ran a biopsy. It turned out cancer. He has throat/neck cancer called Squamous Cell Carcinoma. He's in a stage 4 as it has spread into multiple lymph nodes.

August 1st they operated on his neck. They removed one tonsil and 59 lymph nodes. The largest being about 3 inches long. They removed his jugular (sp) vein, and a salivary gland. They are unable to find the orgin of the cancer at this time.

Next friday he goes in for a PET scan then begins radiation/chemo.

That's pretty much it in a nutshell.

[DianaB]

Sheryl, I'm not that far away if you need me or if you need someone to talk to just call. {{{{{{Sheryl}}}}}}

[Tink]

Sheryl, my prayers are with you both too.
As the other ladies have so nicely said, we're all willing and able to be here for you in whatever ways we can. You need prayer... you've got it. You need to vent, we'll listen. You need to cry, we'll hold you in our hearts and watch your back till you can see again.