Self Gratification

No I don't constitute it as cheating, hell if it were I'd be guilty of it (in the toy sense) lol, sorry to be so blunt here but if you go read my post to the nitty gritty poll you'll know why I have to do this crap!! And trust me, I'd rather not do it but God, what other choice do I freaking have!! Anyway, as I said I don't constitute it as cheating however- if he did this all the time and I knew about it- I would be pissed. Again, read my post to the nitty gritty poll and you'll know why. If he has the desire for self gratification but not for me, yeah- s*** would be hitting the fan. That would piss me off to no end.