Hope It Doesn't Bore You

[JJJ]

Talk your heart out Janet. In my opinion he doesn't know how to respond to you. Maybe wording it differently might work. He might not want to cry in front of you. Men are Men

[Janet]

Yesterday Jerry and I took Mom's car back to a Toyota dealer. When Ricky and I went, we were going to have to pay them $1117.00 and they were pay the rest of the car off and then sell it. This time we (and we accepted) only had to pay $437.00.

I was very sad...this kind of stuff just makes my heart ache so much. While Jerry was taking the license plates off I started crying, I couldn't help it. It was just one more thing to confirm she's gone. Jerry just told me... "it's just a car Janet" and I told him I knew that, but it was Mom's first and only new car and she loved it so much. Then the subject was changed and he brought me home. As hard as it was....I'm glad it's over.

[DianaB]

We know that it's hard, Janet, and we want you to let us know how you're feeling. Losing a parent is so hard. Your brothers weren't with your Mom every day......through good and bad.....so they don't understand how you feel. You'll have days like this one every once in a while......it's part of the grieving process. We love you!!! Hugs!!!!

[Janet]

Originally Posted by DianaB

We know that it's hard, Janet, and we want you to let us know how you're feeling. Losing a parent is so hard. Your brothers weren't with your Mom every day......through good and bad.....so they don't understand how you feel. You'll have days like this one every once in a while......it's part of the grieving process. We love you!!! Hugs!!!!

Before I went on my afternoon route yesterday, I stopped at the mailbox and decided I'd just check the mail once I got to school. I won't do that anymore. There was a large sturdy envelope that I opened. There was a very nice book from local merchants called The Healing Heart. It has some articles in it to help deal with grief, a place to record 3 generations of family and it had Mom's name embossed on the front. I don't think the kids saw that I had been crying, because they didn't take long looks at me or anything. I think I covered it up pretty good.

From now on....all mail will be opened at home.

[DianaB]

Oh Janet......Here's a big hug....

[judy]

This is such a hard thing to go through, Janet. We are all here for you.

Just keep on feeling whatever you feel, and share it here. Ignore your brother, and anyone else who sticks their 2 cents in. They don't know what you feel like inside, and it really doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

[JJJ]

I hope little by little you will start feeling better. Like everyone else said we are here for you. We understand and don't mind when you cry or have to repeat things to get off your chest.