Feeling very sad tonight

[goofywife]

Angie,

Back in the day (when I was younger) I was in a situation that made me feel like you are describing, I found my solice in running and talking with the lord, and when I thought, I couldn't run any more, is when I felt closest to God. This helped me through it. Now, when I look back, I that situation is what helped make me who I am today.

So, as the others have said it so beautifully, take heart, sometime in your future you will look back with fondness and see what came out of the situation.

Good luck, I will keep you in my prayers.

Michelle

Originally Posted by AngieDoogles

Thank you so much ladies. Your responses really touched me.

I'm sad again just thinking about this situation. I kind of wish this one aspect of my life could be like it was and everything else stay the same, but like you all have said, it wouldn't be the same. I'm not trying to be cryptic, I promise. It's just that I don't have the words to describe the emotions I'm feeling (how can you ever truly convey something you feel so strongly?). I thought things were getting better for a brief period of time and then without warning, it suddenly got worse again with no explanation.

I sat down this morning and started writing an email. I wanted to really put my heart into it so that the words I said would convey exactly what I wanted them to (and the depth of the emotion I'm feeling as well). I wrote a lot, cried a lot, and then deleted it. It just wasn't enough. It wasn't what I wanted it to be, and it wouldn't change anything anyway so why try?

I wish I could be happy with my life, but so often I find myself thinking about this situation. I don't even know why I go back to look at those pictures in the first place. Maybe I should just delete them and get rid of everything else that brings back those memories. Maybe that would keep me from feeling so sad and hopeless...

[Janet]

Marilyn, your response was just beautiful. I think, at times, I know how you feel Angie. I'll keep you close in prayer.

[AngieDoogles]

Originally Posted by Janet

Marilyn, your response was just beautiful. I think, at times, I know how you feel Angie. I'll keep you close in prayer.

I'm sorry that you have to feel that way Janet. I thank you and Michelle (and the others) for all of your prayers.

[Janet]

Oh Angie, I don't feel that way all the time and you won't either. I just meant I know how you feel. Pictures...a song...a story...sometimes will take us back, but that's only because we're remembering the good stuff in those memories and not the bad..... I hope you feel better soon.

[AngieDoogles]

Originally Posted by Janet

Oh Angie, I don't feel that way all the time and you won't either. I just meant I know how you feel. Pictures...a song...a story...sometimes will take us back, but that's only because we're remembering the good stuff in those memories and not the bad..... I hope you feel better soon.

I know you don't feel that way all the time. I just hate it that you do on occasion. You are such a sweet lady and I hate to think of anything making you sad or upset.

Remembering the good makes you sad that things have changed though...does that make sense? That's what I'm feeling, I guess.

[judy]

Dear Angie,

You can't delete the feelings, even if you delete the pictures honey. I used to lead a group for divorced and separated women and our theme was "You can't get through it until you go though it." Sadly, this is the absolute truth. You're strong and good and you'll work it through in your own mind until you make peace with yourself.

In the meantime, I'm sending you prayers and lots of hugs,

Judy

[AngieDoogles]

Originally Posted by judy

Dear Angie,

You can't delete the feelings, even if you delete the pictures honey. I used to lead a group for divorced and separated women and our theme was "You can't get through it until you go though it." Sadly, this is the absolute truth. You're strong and good and you'll work it through in your own mind until you make peace with yourself.

In the meantime, I'm sending you prayers and lots of hugs,

Judy

So you don't think deleting those pictures will help? I thought maybe it would help me to not dwell on things that won't change. My thinking was that if I have nothing to remind me of it, then I won't think about it as much and won't feel as sad. I already got rid of all of the pictures in my house, just not the ones on my computer yet (or old emails, I'm really bad about reading those and making myself sad again).

Thank you for your advice, prayers, and hugs! I really appreciate it.

[Janet]

I would hate for you to throw away..delete...whatever, any kind of picture. Someday you will be ready to look at them again and you won't have them.

[AngieDoogles]

Originally Posted by Janet

I would hate for you to throw away..delete...whatever, any kind of picture. Someday you will be ready to look at them again and you won't have them.

I understand. That's why I haven't gotten rid of them yet. It's just that at this point I'm willing to do whatever needs to be done to not feel this way anymore. Is it worth it to regret it later?