the serenity prayer

[Ponyup]

thank you ladies & you are right it's all in my head & i've tried to be rational about it but that's not working. I'm not sleeping, I don't have an appetite & when I do force myself to eat I throw up.....like i just did. I am visible thinner since sunday & i don't have that much to lose. I have to do this or I'll waste away. I'm trying to get over it now, because i am solving the problem. with anyluck it will be gone or signicantly faded by summer & be a non issue. I'll know more once i talk to the plastic surgen. Hopefully, taking these steps will be enough to get me over the hump. Please keep me in your prayers. I wish i woulda never gotten the dumb thing, but now that it's there this seems to be my only option. Please pray that i can keep food down.